Late Nights and Crying Eyes

Dear Friend,

I didn't sleep last night. I've always been able to sleep like a baby. Just plop me down anywhere and I'm out. But the last few nights have been a little... complicated. I can't fall asleep till about 2am and then I have weird dreams where I'm trying to safe something but I can't. I go on these crazy adventures in wacky places on this quest. I can feel it's important and my dream self is taking it all very seriously. I'm hiding from hundreds of people in a huge building with only a few friends at my side, who always seem to leave at the wrong moment. Or I leave them to protect them from... whatever it is. This has been going on for the last two-ish nights.

Last night, I was up till 2am again, laying there. I listened to music for awhile, I facebooked a bit, too. Around 1:25, I found myself sitting on my floor starring into my mirror. My lights were on, so my mom came down and found me. She was kinda weirded out, but not half as much as me. I felt crazy. What was I doing down there? Mom left, and I turned off my light and started crying. I'm not sure why. I started talking to Jeremy. I do that sometimes when I'm alone and I feel like he's listening. I pretended he was holding my hand and that he was listening to me and I told him how much it still hurt. I begged him to stay till I fell asleep. Crazy as it sounds, I felt like he was really there. I think he did stay with me. I have no reason to believe he didn't.

It's just like Jeremy to comfort someone crying. He always did that for people. He'd just sit there, so concerned and let them talk and cry, never saying a word or lending advice. Having him there was enough. I saw him with his best friend once. She was crying in the techies work room. He was crouched in front of her with his hand on her knee, silent and there. Just him being there made you know you would never be alone and that he'd never leave you and that it was okay to be weak cause he would be strong for you for a while. You don't find someone like that everyday.

"Sometimes goodbye's a second chance." -Shinedown
Jeremy will get a second chance. I know that. I will, too. We all will. We'll get another chance to be with him. Miss you my friend. Thank you for never leaving us.